Something's missing

I don't know who said it, but someone said "Its lonely at the top." Now not that I am at the top of anything, but I understand the concept. Being in ministry can be quite a lonely place. My best friend is my wife. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but she judges my problems on an emotional level. My next best friend happens to be my boss. You know how thrilling that is when you have a problem. And that is about it with my list of friends. Trying to find friends while in ministry has proved to be a difficult task for me. Whenever I meet someone new, they ask what I do...."I am a youth pastor." Instantly either they assume that I am going to make all their problems disappear, or that I am going to be judgmental of every aspect of their lives. It is really not the case. I think there is a huge reason why Jesus left his disciples to go and pray. Day in and day out ministry. People needing, people wanting. Was Jesus really able to have just a friend? I talked to an old friend of mine today and asked for advice and all he could muster up was, "yep, ministry is a lonely place." Thanks 'friend.' I don't ever want anyone to get the wrong impression, I LOVE MY JOB! Really do! But can I have one relationship where the person isn't thinking that I have an agenda for their lives? Can I have one relationship where I can just be me and not get a raised eyebrow for something stupid I might say? Can I have one relationship where someone doesn't need something from me every second of every day? John Mayer said it best, "Down with broken people, this is me I'm workin on."